Funtastic Island Medellin

 August 24, 2014 (sunday)- there's a lot of reason to celebrate that day, but the very main reason is- it was my Sisters Birthday, and long before that day, we already made plans to celebrate her birthday in funtastic island. well, another reason is, its actually 2nd year anniversary since i officially said yes to my current boyfriend. 2 years  of happiness, 2 years of fain, 2 years of rollercoster ride. :):( it wasnt really a perfect time to celebrate, we had a huge fight 2 days before our anniversary. i found out that im not the only one! it was painful. yes, who would not be hurt if you found out that the only man you love, the person whom you trust the most would betray you! to make the story short he cheated on me, im not really sure of the whole story. but i choose to forgave him! funny right? but i really believe in second chances, although things would never be same again. you might say im blinded or stupid for forgiving him. well, before you slap me in the face for forgiving him that easilly, let me tell you this- slap me now! hahaha,kidding, i dont want to blog the whole reason why, but i promise im still in my mind and i know what im doing. dont worry because i will blog the whole story, i will post it here everything, the story of betrayal, pain, hatred, and everything, ill post the reason why i choose to forgive, but for now, let me share all the fun happening in Funtastic island! :) its really fintastic! amaizing ! and exrtreme!

medellin here we go

im with these cool people

                                                  the beautiful island of medellin

                                                 white sand beach

                                                 the amaizing zipline

                                                       kawit beach, beautiful white sand

big rocks

                                                  theres always a kid inside me

                                                 beautiful sunset

  forgive me for being vain in the next pictures :)

with kokey:) hahahaha

Dear MY boyfriend,

Waking up beside you, seeing your cute face and waking you up with a sweet morning kiss would be nice. And if you don’t want to get up yet I’ll just shake you off, play with your hair, whack you with a pillow, nibble your ears, shout at your ear or pull your feet off the bed. 

Loving you always,
YOURGIRLFRIEND

Being a boyfriend ♥
Being a boyfriend is more than just sending your girl “I love you and I miss you” texts, giving her flowers and gifts on your important dates, or calling your girl babe or whatever endearments you wanna call her. It’s something deeper than that. Being romantic is a part and doing all those stuffs is a must. But I guess those things is just the side which is visible to everyone. Being a boyfriend is also being an emotional partner. It’s being there for your girl every time she needs a helping hand, being there to listen to all of her stories, being there to guide her on what is right and what is wrong. Her problem is your problem, her tears were your tears, and her happiness is your happiness. I think that is the meaning of being a boyfriend.

A-S-T-O-R-I-A-S escapade (if i were a boy o.O)

my "bestfriend's exboyfriend" that is also my friend, ivan, kinda like share the same personality w? me. we're kinda laagan, ok! not really "kinda" im really laagan, im the "mosey" type who goes out leisurely without having a second thoughts. (wordz from melz) we want to go to far laces, especially places we've never been to.maybe To have some adventure thingy or just to have a plain laag2. to have the time of my life. im a kind of person who want to spend the best time of my life, live life to the fullest, party hard(weh?), have some fun(naks), i dont want to spend my rentire life following the line, be good-be boring-be blablabla-do this-do that-follow the rules-and blablabla!. its like living for them i want to live my life without so much regrets by doing what i love and what i believe! well, its me, i have my own rules! it's my life my choice my mistake my concequence! so leave it to me! and stop telling me what's right or wrong! you're just accepting a hands down culture, you don't even know or understand! i really don't get it! people love to follow the trends without full understanding! just because people say and do that, just people believe this and that, just because people say thats good and thats right you easily believe? without fully understanding it! i really dont get it! why just cant they live for themselves and stop having a hard time by doing things they don't want just because someone say so! come on! wait, im being too far fron the topic! haha! im having a discussion here already! hahaha! forgive me about that im just taken by my emotions! back to the topic:

so since he knew that i love going to far places, he invited me together w/ some people (yeah you read it right "some people", its because i dont consider everyone thats being invited was my friend) to go to astorias, since his family will be going there. then as an outgoing, extrovert and sociable type of person i did not have a second thought!wait! ahm i did have a second thought! he told me that we will go there on dec.7 and will be back on dec.9. yeah we'll stay there 2 nights and 3 days, the problem was, me and my boyfriend already made plans first for dec.8. O.o yah, we made plans first but we're kinda having problems during this time. we are having some misunderstanding and we're onto trouble. i can't give you the details. its not the usual problem of a bf/gf.for me it's a big problem, for me it was really big. biggest problem we've encounter so far. and its like i cant go on with this relationship anymore. giving up was really on my mind. i thought breaking up was already the answer. but i didn't wanna have a rush decision so maybe to have a time to think and a space formyself i'll say yes to the astorias invitation. but his still my boyfriend despite of these troubles, so im still going to ask his permission. and so i did asked his permission. and. . . .  and. . . . yes! he said it was ok to cancel our "moviethingy @ sm" so i did went to ASTORIAS.
i should remind myself the i'll go there to think. to clear my mind! to find answer! and to find myself!(as if nawala) :))
and one more thing, lets not forget
TO HAVE SOME F U N!
(let the pictures explain my astorias experience)

oh see?? nangatog na sila! ako wa pako nahumag huna2-huna!! haha! maoya!

view gawas sa window!

amu gi stayhan!

daghan tuko!

laki ko!

bugnaw kai hangin basta gavie

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mai kai ko mu saka! mai pa ko sa mga pure laki! haha

and so i did had fun!
and time to think and time for myself! ^_^
it's all worth it!

a piece of the past

as i was reading my old diary, essay and other things i have written, i found something, something that really brought back a lot of memory A PIECE OF THE PAST, its like a letter for no one. .i already forgot it, i can't even remember when and where i wrote it, but as i was reading it, its like going back from the past, the things, the feelings the people, and the situation. and i realized how things already changed. from there to here.YES, things have change already, the people, the situation, and the feelings. . .

here's the content of that thingy:

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It's been a long time i wrote to you about what i feel, but right now, im in the mood so im gonna writ everything that bothers me. actually, there are really a lot of things that bothers me. like, if i still want this relationship to workout, i mean my relationship with mr. coffee, well whatever relationship we have right now, whether its friendship or hateship or whatever, im really bother if i still want to continue. Not because i dont want him anymore or im already bored or the feelings are gone, it's not that. im just kinda tired, well not exactly tired but hurt, yeah maybe tired, emotionally tired, i dont know if im just insensitive and i dont see all the things he does or its just he's really not doing anything to worked this out,  his words tells that im really special, im happy about that but words without action? its nothing. same as actions without words is kinda confusing. sometimes he's sweet, sometimes he's so cold, i dont know what he thinks! i dont really know what i am to him. im really so confused , and because of that im starting to change already, cause his actions motivates me to change. then what makes the situation more confusing is this guyfriend, mr.13! yeah im confused cause it seems that im stating to like him or to fall for him and its like im starting to miss him, he's starting to stay on my mind and im kinda afraid he might travel in my heart and stay there.
yes im afraid, its because my closefriends have feelings for him. my friend loves mr.13 so much and i dont want to hurt the feelings of my friend.
But i think im not really inlove with mr.13 . Yes im pretty sure about that. its because SOMEONE still occupies the entireplace in  my heart.
but i know nothing is constant in this world. i dont know, maybe tomorrow everything will change already and that SOMEONE will no longer be in my heart and that mr.13 will be in my heart already. we dont know. I DONT KNOW!\

but for now, im sure my heart still belongs to that SOMEONE. i dont wish to replace him. eventhough sometimes his the reason for my sadness and confusions. still, that wont change anything. He will always be the reason for those random smiles and the reason for my happiness. The man behind all those untold stories. AS OF NOW! i think im even falling for him more and more. bleeh. HAHA! anyways, anyways, anyways, im really confuse. i realy need help! MY! stop making me feel this way! Pls. i hope everything willbe okey at the end of the day!

2:57 (class dismiss) ended

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funny right? maybe i wrote this during our class. haha