cut-off

   today, i cut off a lot of things, well not really ''a lot'' but i cut off two things!

FIRST was my hair, i cut my hair off- i cut it w/out thinking. just when i saw a scissor, i was like I MADE A BIG DECISION TODAY, I DECIDED TO MAKE SOME CHANGES so im gonna cut some portion of my hair(watz the connection? i dont even know too. haha. just plain weirdness). so i get the scissor then get some portion of my hair then cut it, wyl i was cutting that portion of my hair i realized that its not as sharp as i was expecting, but i already cut some part so there's no turning back, i must finish cutting that portion, and yeah sad to say i did finished cutting that portion of my hair.

  still holding the scissor-staring myself in the mirror, another crazy thing popped up in my mind, TO CUT A PORTION ON THE OTHER SIDE. and again another sad thing happened. haha.

i put the hair that i cut in a bottle, you know, some remembrance of my crazyness.

and the SECOND THING that i cut off was my eyelashes. its kinda long so i decided to cut it off.

haha. i didnt really cut my eyelashes.kidding!!

its not really my eye lashes but its my soulmate! :(  i cut all the ties i have with him. i decided to cut whatever kind of relationship with him.  As whai i had mentioned above "I MADE A BIG DECISION TODAY, I DECIDED TO MAKE SOME CHANGES" . i don't think i could get back everything i have said, just like whai i've done on my hair, i did it without thinking. after evrything i did, i dont think i could get him back. the decision i've made was just like the hair i cut off, i don't think i could do some redo, get things back.all i can do is to wait for the time, i would have another long hair again and replace the hair that i cut off, and to wait for the time to find someone who can replace his place in my life.

but i really don't think someone can replace him, someone may take another place in my life, but can;'t really replace him.

 I really believe that his my soulmate, its just that we're not destined. but his really my soulmate! i dont have any regrets! being friends with him was one of the happiest times in my life. he made me feel that im special, he made me feel that im not just an ordinary friend. he taught me that love doesn't really need some title, if you love someone show it, don't waste time, life is full of uncertain things. he taught me that being myself is the best way to impress somebody. that just being the weird, childish, immature, insensitive and crazy me, someone will still loved me.!he taught me a lot of things, made me realized a lot of things, yes, we didnt have a happy ending! but he will always be my SOULMATE AND MY FIRSTLOVE!

my hair looks like this, not exactly like this but a sort off.haha. jeez, k, not really like this, my hair looks terrible and ugly! haha

yes I cut my hair off but it's not really that big deal , I'd still be ME , I wouldn't let anyone define me because of that. haha (reason!!!haha)